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below are pictures taken on 18 Dec 2010, Saturday!

Thanks to my lovely friends for partying with me for my belated 19th birthday.

"How sad it is to know that we'll all disappear one day. How sad it is to all end up loving something that death will touch. Tomorrow will always come, again and again, until the day we perish and our loved ones perish.Time catches up to us, and our lives end like the vanishing of the fire of a fragile, delicate candle. Life is evanescent, fleeting away from our grasps during every breath we take. And when our hearts stop beating, when we are gone, we are slowly being forgotten."

As the year 2010 comes to an end, I can't help but travel down memory lane thinking about everything that has happened throughout the year. If I had to summarize, 2010 was just one fucking hell of a ride. Countless things happened this year that changed me. A hell lot. I do not know if all that I'd gone through actually made me stronger or just weaker, and more vulnerable. In fact, I cannot describe how I've turned out today. I can only say, I am a different person.

But then again, who isn't? People change every single minute, if not every single day. Nothing is permanent. No one is the same forever. Our experiences and beliefs define each and every one of us. It hasn't been an easy year at all, 2010. At certain points, I was going through hell. In fact, I destroyed myself at some points of time this year. And now when I think about it, I do not know how I am still here surviving, facing each day like none of it happened before. I guess I simply see no point in regretting my actions, in blaming myself or/and others for everything that occurred in the past. All those memories would remain, no matter how much I want to forget them. In time, I know I will.

Just like any other year, 2010 taught me so much. Sure, I met new people who came and stayed. On the other hand, I lost some people in my life who weren't significant enough to remain in my life. I gained some, and lost some. I destroyed friendships and I built new ones, as well as rekindled old ties. Like I said, the whole year was just full of ups and downs, what's new? It's just how life is.

One valuable lesson I learned: Fuck it. Just do not give a fuck to insignificant, meaningless things and people. No one can bring me down unless I allow he/she to do so. Sure, you can go ahead and talk behind my back all you want. I do not actually give a fuck anymore. Ah yes, that was the whole point of 2010, just do not give a fuck. Say whatever it is you want to say about me. You know what hurts most, right? It's when someone feign ignorance and does not give a shit about you. I've learned to be that someone, thanks to the shits I went through in 2010.

I do not feel any overwhelming sadness or nostalgia in having to leave the past year. I am looking forward to embrace 2011 and whatever that is to come in my way this upcoming year. Every single thing happened for a reason, I'll never forget that.